DAWN OF 2015

A PERSONAL MEMOIR

This is the year I turn 60.

What now?  Retired 8 months ago.  Can honestly say. Not working out as planned. Actually, truth be told, I never had a plan.  I mean, financially I sort of did but… I just assumed that…well… nothing.   And that’s where it’s at.  Nothing.

I’ve never done nothing.  It’s weird.

Don’t get me wrong.  It felt great doing nothing at first.  I was free from the bullshit.  I spent time at the cabin…doing nothing.  I visited the kids…did nothing. I traveled…nothing. Great. Did it all in 8 months.

Now, on the dawn of 2015…  I’m doing nothing.

I am bored stiff.

Okay. Part of it might be that harsh reality is setting in.  I can’t deny the facts. As an entrepreneur I was lucky that I had the foresight to save for my own retirement, which is good news.   What I don’t have is one of those indexed pensions other than CPP and guaranteed supplement income if I fall below the poverty line (come on everyone gets that). I have a finite amount of money set aside. Believe me, saving for your own retirement is character building. How much is enough? How long are you going to live? How long will the money last?  Really important, it’s the beginning of spending the money. That’s more character then I had planned to build. The point is that I realize that for the last 40 years I’ve either been working or buying stuff. Now, no more working. No more buying stuff.  Nothing.

I am bored stiff.

It’s the dawn of 2015.  The year I turn 60.

Maybe I’m looking at this all wrong.  Maybe I don’t have to be bored—stiff.  After all, there’s a whole world out there and surely it isn’t in a mall.  Maybe it’s in your heart.  Maybe now is the time you have the opportunity, perhaps the last,  to be the person you were meant to be.  That’s what I’m going to do. Best of all it’s not going to cost me a dime (cause I’m on a budget now). I’m going to take this time to figure out the person I was meant to be.

What’s boring about that?

 

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